I realized after skipping an update last week I may have had some of you wondering if there was baby news, but not yet… Still here and still pregnant! The crazy thing is that I could literally have this baby any day now. Am I ready? Thats what everyone keeps asking me… I’m as ready as I’m going to be I suppose. There are still a bunch of things I want to get done like scrub the bathroom, fold and put away baby clothes, clean out the fridge (again) and make some freezer meals but I don’t know if I’ll get around to them or not.
Feelings: What I can say for sure is that I’m not one of those pregnant women who are just done and want to “get this baby out”, rather I’m feeling really emotional and nostalgic already for this is the last baby we plan on having. Growing a life is pretty wild and incredible and I’m just trying to savour each moment, each hiccup, nudge and shift and write it to memory while I try not to cry about it. (Spoiler alert, try as I might, I’m totally crying about it.) At the same time I’m of course so excited to meet this tiny human and have her join our family.
Midwife appointment: With appointments every week now, I’ve had two since my last update. The first was last week in office and while my mom was up visiting. It was nice to be able to bring her along to see the practice, ask a few questions herself and of course hear the little one’s heartbeat. We also touched again on my most recent ultrasound and that we’re back on track to plan for a home birth. Huzzah! This week one of my midwives came to our home for the appointment in preparation for the birth, just to check out the space and ensure we have everything on hand that we need. We’re pretty much set – We’ve got our birthing pool on loan (though we still need to fill it up and check for holes and borrow a hose to fill it when the time comes) and I still need to gather a few more old towels to have on hand too. I also got my GBS results back and they were negative so I won’t need antibiotics during labour which is great. I have one final ultrasound booked for early next week to reassess babe’s growth and then it’s just a matter of waiting…
Sleep: I miss sleep and yes I should get used to that feeling, but I feel like such a zombie most of the time and I can’t hold a proper conversation. Apologies to those who have tried talking to me and found me trailing off as I stare into the distance while trying to finish a sentence!!
Big Brother prep: We borrowed a new book from the library by Dr. Sears to read which is really well done and comes from an attachment parenting perspective and has been good for bedtime reading. My mom guilt has really set in this week as Woodrow has been at school full days and he’s so tired by the end of the day that it’s hard to have any real quality time together. Last night Mark was working late so W and I had a little dinner and a movie date just the two of us which was really nice, even though it eventually ended in tears as the poor little guy was just so tired.
Baby prep: I’ve been trying to fix up our guest apartment for my parents who will come up when I go into labour. Mark got some last minute painting done, I’ve been trying to keep the clutter around here to a minimum. Also our DockATot finally arrived and it is SO sweet, Mark and I both “awwwe’d” over it when we unwrapped it.
Tonight we’ve got a date night – most likely our last child-free one in a long long while!
Days until due date: s e v e n.